My Website Goes Live

Ryan Speakman Website

Summer Tidings everyone.^^/

With encouragement from my family I have decided to open up a website that’s all about me. I feel like, and my friends and family agree, that I have more to offer than writing and blogging. On my site I talk about my hobbies and passion for writing, I show my photography and art and of course my blog.

As I have my very own website now I have decided to concentrate my blogging posts about autism, anime and my thoughts in general over there instead of here on the WordPress site.

I have always thought about having my very own website but I never really had the confidence to get my face out there, especially on the internet… until now. Over the years, my confidence has grown. Not only am I opening up about my autism I actually talk about my daily experiences in social situations and I’m showing my fan art across the net. Showing my art has especially been a concern of mine since I was younger. Nowadays those worries are behind me.

WordPress was the platform for me to start blogging and to me there’s no better way to start. I found that my confidence soured and I felt like my writing has improved every single time I write up a new post.

If you like to check out my new website, here is the link.

www.ryanspeakman.co.uk

Thank you to everyone who has been taking an interest in my blogs so far. I enjoy what I’m writing but it’s a bonus knowing that some you enjoy reading them. It makes my blogging experience all the more enjoyable.

Thanks for Reading. =)

Namaste.^^/

Ryan.

Solar Eclipse: Then and Now

Solar Eclipse

Good Morning.^^/

  1. THEN

I remember the first time I saw the Solar Eclipse. It was back in 1999.

It was arranged for my class to go on a trip to the countryside to see the Solar Eclipse take place. Lots of other people went to this countryside too. We had to wear these special glasses to protect our eyes from the sun. To me, those glasses seemed more appropriate for cinema use rather than star gazing. Haha.

I remember the advert that involved the teacher and her primary school students. It was advertising Jaffa cakes but it was relevant to the Solar eclipse. She kept on eating these Jaffa cakes to demonstrate how the Solar Eclipse works. She said “Full moon!” and took half a bite of the Jaffa cake. She then said “Half moon!” and eat the other half of the Jaffa cake. She then said “Total Eclipse!” and she eat the whole Jaffa cake. The children then had to repeat her words. It was really funny. Does anyone else remember that advert?

I remember this one particular situation when I was at that countryside. I saw these two lads, both in white tops, walking past me. They both seemed nervous. I thought nothing more of it. I was too busy trying to comfort my eyes from looking at the sun too much. Haha.

This gentleman then came up to my teachers and asked if they have seen these certain lads that he was looking for. He described what they look like and his descriptions matched the same lads that I saw walking past me from moments ago. So, I said “they went up there” and I pointed in the direction that I saw them go. All the teachers looked at me, laughed and told me not to make things up. They apologised to the gentleman and told him that they didn’t know where they were…

I was somewhat frustrated at that moment, because I knew that I was right. Five minutes later, he came back and told us all that the lads he was looking for was “up ahead”. This meant that I was right. The teachers apologised to me at that moment. I think this was probably the first time that I received an apology from an adult. It was very weird but in a good way. To me this meant that even adults make mistakes, not just children. I was very happy. =)

I saw the Solar Eclipse with my very eyes at that moment, and saw a beautiful crimson red shining around it.

This was a very good moment. This marked the last time that the solar eclipse would happen in that Millennium, and I saw it happen. =)

  1. NOW

The Solar Eclipse that happened today was as lovely as I remember it from 1999. I snapped a few decent shots with my phone camera, although the dark clouds did get in the way. Getting a good shot was quite difficult. I still like the photos that I snapped though. =)

I was squinting towards the sun a couple of times. I couldn’t look at it directly since it wouldn’t be healthy for the eyes. At that very moment I saw a red crimson circle shining the moon and sun. I think you call this the diamond ring. I don’t understand the terms correctly but I’m pretty sure that this is called the diamond ring. I saw this from the garden of my house. The moon was moving really fast, much faster then I remember from last time.

I’ll share this one picture with you that I snapped personally. It’s not the clearest but it’s the best that I could do. =)

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THANKS FOR READING

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As of right at this moment, as I’m looking up at the sun again, it looks like Pacman is trying to eat the clouds. Haha! I’m now going to take this time to comfort my eyes and have a good look at my phone. The camera part of my phone stopped working. Whoops! Haha.

Thanks for reading. =)

Namaste.^^/

Ryan

Being Assertive

Enlightenment in nature

My confidence in socialising is growing. I’m also getting a knack with dealing with situations appropriately. If someone makes a rude quip I always tend to ignore it. Sure, I may get irritated for those next five minutes but I always manage to hold my tongue. However, what can be a challenge or what was a challenge is not getting on the bad side of others.

I was timid when I was at school and college. I was often afraid of disappointing or upsetting someone. If someone flirted with me, I’d let them even though sometimes I felt uncomfortable. If someone asked me to vacate my chair, I would. And if someone gave me a pound and asked me to do them a favour and get a snack for them, I would. I never did this to be popular, I did this so I didn’t disappoint. I built myself a reputation of making people happy, I felt like I had to do these things.

Throughout the years I did learn to be assertive and say ‘no.’ One time at college a drunken man stopped me during my walk and asked if I could give him a pound so he could buy a pint. I said, ‘no’ and walked on. The dude and his friend cursed after me as I walked on… I felt rather shaken after this. It’s not often that I said no but everyone I talked to said that I did the right thing. I felt better after this.

My confidence in saying ‘no’ did boost and made me feel empowered.^^/

I learnt that you don’t have to make others happy by humiliating or degrading yourself. That’s not what it means to make others happy. Making others happy means being nice to them and cheering them up if they need perking up. Those who force you to do things or pass judgement on you are not worth your time or energy. If they disapprove of you not wanting to do what they ask, that’s their problem.

I joined Instagram as one of my favourite past times is photography. This provides me with the opportunity to show everyone how I view world and things that make me happy. From time to time I get the odd user that would ask “follow 4 follow?” I.E., if you follow me on Instagram then I’ll follow you back. I’m flattered that someone would take their time to write a message on one of my photos. However, I have no interest in gaining followers just for the sake of it.

5 years ago I would have given into pressure and followed the user, anxious that he/she may disapprove if I didn’t comply. Now, however, I have no such worries. The only people that I’m following are those who I know in real life and those who are my real life friends. I do follow Charlton Athletic’s official Instagram page but they are a special exception. ^^/ If someone I don’t know wants to follow me, that’s no problem, but I don’t have any intention of following someone who I don’t know. It’s nothing personal; it’s just how I feel. That and it was never my intention of getting the most followers or being the most popular. My intention was to show the photos that I’m proud to show to the world. =)

Of course I still want to make others happy, it’s who I am. But, you shouldn’t have to degrade yourself in order to make others happy. If they have a low opinion of you or disapprove of you standing your ground, that’s their issue, not yours. =)

THANKS FOR READING

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I’m having a good day today. I watched some Football and the High School DxD Blu-Ray (stay tuned for a future anime review). I also heard that Monster Musume has topped the New York Times charts once again. Go MonMusu! =D

I anticipated that my next blog would be about anime, but I felt like writing this blog on the spur of the moment.

26 days and Christmas is here. =)

Thanks for reading.^^/

Hohoho,

Ryan.